I hope your loss doesn't cause me to lose you.

once upon a time someone I loved very much decided she had had enough of me.  it was horrible.  I felt alone and like I had done something wrong.  it sucked really really bad.  after awhile I was able to see that it was for the best.  one thing I never did was let go of my friends, their support kept me afloat; MH please do the same. At a time when the black sea of loss, despair and guilt are crashing onto you it is your friends and those who love you that will keep your head above that sea and it will keep your eyes clear.  Bad things happen when you jump around in the dark with blinded eyes.

Chauncey wants to make Madison happy

do it

wish came true.  at least half of it did. now I just have to make sure that in the process the good half of that wish isn't washed away by tears.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

In her words "you don't get to pick who you love"
in the words of a friend "you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved"
in my words, "if I can't hold you I will do my best to hold you up"
  Ms. Madison Hightower, I'm the one for you and you are the one for me, it was meant to be, you know it as much as I do. That go-tard has finally set you free. hopefully your tears don't wash you away from me. -Chauncey DeLaroux

it will suck right now, but it will be good in time

yeah

so I saw the place I am going to start working at today.  not bad. the best part is that not only did the chef see , he saw me with a pretty girl.  excellent way to suck up. having pretty girls around always helps in someway.

I also want to say that in relation to the double thumbed fist situation; take your sister's advice. the points of view from people who know you well but aren't involved directly in a situation can be very good.  good for me in the long run.  let's hope she does alright with everything; I really want to look out for her. bye

a hand with a thumb on each end

so a six fingered hand with a thumb on each and is currently giving me the thumbs up and thumbs down at the same time.  something I wanted to happen seems like it might have; but the aftershocks of that happening could be exactly what I did not want. dammit. just when things were looking up. oh well, I've got a lot to do today, I'll just have to worry about it later.  that two thumbed hand is the image of the day.  I also learned that someone I thought was a good friend is actually a piece of shit.  good thing a family member might fuck that dude's life up real good.

my girls at le'toile are the best, they can promote me any time

@ Spot Art Gallery
1828 Marshall Street NE
Minneapolis

7-11pm / Free

Stop in to Spot Art Gallery tonight and take a gander at a cool new group show featuring the work of local artists Andrey Feldshteyn, Serik Kilmeshkenov, Bryant Locher, Cody Kiser, Merry Reimier, Connie Kasella, Spleee, BMF, and Karl Friedrich. We're especially excited to see what Bryant Locher has in store, as this is the first time he's shown paintings in a couple of years, instead focusing on creating innovative lighting design for the band Solid Gold and other projects. Tonight's opening at Spot Art will also feature live music by David Harland at 9pm and henna tattoo art by Judy Ostrowski.

april fool's day

I pulled a great april fool's day gag.  I posted on facebook that I cut part of my finger off while drunk the night before.   people read my comments and frequently reply.  they ate this one up.  awesome.

no words beyond wow

I'm an over-reactive april fool.  I got tricked bad.  I over-reacted supremely.  I embarrassed myself extremely.  I am an idiot