ahhhhhh fuck

a good friend of mine recently said to me, "dude, people would love to have some of the 'problems' you've got".  fine.  right now I'm being forced to accept the fact that I have to let go of the best option that has come up and go after another that may be good, but probably not as good.  the new option seems to be like when the teaser trailer is better than the one that gets shown in the theater and you're not sure if you should go see the show or not.  I hate this shit.  

work

I need a job.  I also need a wizard to advise me in the decision making process.  I'm great at finding myself in situations that make asking advice difficult, that is why a wizard would be so helpful; he could read the stars so I wouldn't need to waste time on the lead-up explanation.   I need a job so I can pay my wizard advisor (probably one of those instances where "you get what you pay for" really means something) and maybe figure out my current quandary.  

Change the channel

So I started a vimeo channel as a place to show video based projects that I've worked on.  Right now there are two videos I worked on for Solid Gold and three promotional clips for a local haunted house.  Check them out.  I'll continue to add new clips as they come out.  I've got some footage from older Solid Gold shows and from the play I did the set/lighting for; "The Polish Pugilist",  which is being edited into clips to show off my work.  There is also more footage from the Solid Gold performance at the Weisman Art Museum where I went all out to make one of the coolest installations that should be coming my way soon.  As another way to promote myself I am excited for this one; Steve Jobs has it right, vimeo is so much better than youtube.


THE BLUEFUTURE VIMEO

mission accomplished

so living in minneapolis you hear about that josh hartnet is here and there and all that.  I ran into him and  I finally got to ask if he slept with shannon sossamon while filming that 40 days and nights movie.

didn't really get an answer

?

odd concerns accompany odd situations.  what am I doing? what do I plan to get out of it? do I have an agenda or not? if an agenda exists and never comes to fruition will I continue anyway? It would be simple to walk away, but I don't think it's the right thing to do.  If only things hadn't been so good

I'm pretty sure the majority of the population would handle things differently if it was them.  

What exactly am I doing?

heights of stupidity

so I have this friend with quite the ego.  he complains/comments regularly on the moronity of people.  someone asked him, "if your friends are such morons why do you hang out with them?" He didn't reply and I didn't say anything at the time.  I thought about the question afterwards and I figured out the answer; it's easier to be condescending to people you've already deemed below you.  if he were to surround himself with people he considered equals he would be challenged and potentially looked down on by others.

I simply find this amusing.  probably doesn't read as well as it sounds in my head.

suck it

The "Epicurean paradox" is a version of the problem of evil. It is a trilemma argument (God is omnipotent, God is good, but Evil exists); or more commonly seen as this quote:

“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?”^[