missing you

I miss my longer hair, the novelty of short hair has worn off. totally.

yo

I'm a bit too open with things, time to get more private

the best kind of shitty

The part in Return of the King when Gandalf starts kicking ass on the wall at Minas Tirith is fucking cool.

I just realized that to orcs aragorn must seem like hitler.  he wanted to rid the world of their kind. and I imagine that after return of the king he went around and did his best to do it.

I hope your loss doesn't cause me to lose you.

once upon a time someone I loved very much decided she had had enough of me.  it was horrible.  I felt alone and like I had done something wrong.  it sucked really really bad.  after awhile I was able to see that it was for the best.  one thing I never did was let go of my friends, their support kept me afloat; MH please do the same. At a time when the black sea of loss, despair and guilt are crashing onto you it is your friends and those who love you that will keep your head above that sea and it will keep your eyes clear.  Bad things happen when you jump around in the dark with blinded eyes.

Chauncey wants to make Madison happy

do it

wish came true.  at least half of it did. now I just have to make sure that in the process the good half of that wish isn't washed away by tears.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

In her words "you don't get to pick who you love"
in the words of a friend "you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved"
in my words, "if I can't hold you I will do my best to hold you up"
  Ms. Madison Hightower, I'm the one for you and you are the one for me, it was meant to be, you know it as much as I do. That go-tard has finally set you free. hopefully your tears don't wash you away from me. -Chauncey DeLaroux

it will suck right now, but it will be good in time

yeah

so I saw the place I am going to start working at today.  not bad. the best part is that not only did the chef see , he saw me with a pretty girl.  excellent way to suck up. having pretty girls around always helps in someway.

I also want to say that in relation to the double thumbed fist situation; take your sister's advice. the points of view from people who know you well but aren't involved directly in a situation can be very good.  good for me in the long run.  let's hope she does alright with everything; I really want to look out for her. bye

a hand with a thumb on each end

so a six fingered hand with a thumb on each and is currently giving me the thumbs up and thumbs down at the same time.  something I wanted to happen seems like it might have; but the aftershocks of that happening could be exactly what I did not want. dammit. just when things were looking up. oh well, I've got a lot to do today, I'll just have to worry about it later.  that two thumbed hand is the image of the day.  I also learned that someone I thought was a good friend is actually a piece of shit.  good thing a family member might fuck that dude's life up real good.