I hope your loss doesn't cause me to lose you.

once upon a time someone I loved very much decided she had had enough of me.  it was horrible.  I felt alone and like I had done something wrong.  it sucked really really bad.  after awhile I was able to see that it was for the best.  one thing I never did was let go of my friends, their support kept me afloat; MH please do the same. At a time when the black sea of loss, despair and guilt are crashing onto you it is your friends and those who love you that will keep your head above that sea and it will keep your eyes clear.  Bad things happen when you jump around in the dark with blinded eyes.

Chauncey wants to make Madison happy

do it

wish came true.  at least half of it did. now I just have to make sure that in the process the good half of that wish isn't washed away by tears.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

In her words "you don't get to pick who you love"
in the words of a friend "you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved"
in my words, "if I can't hold you I will do my best to hold you up"
  Ms. Madison Hightower, I'm the one for you and you are the one for me, it was meant to be, you know it as much as I do. That go-tard has finally set you free. hopefully your tears don't wash you away from me. -Chauncey DeLaroux

it will suck right now, but it will be good in time