Monday, May 17, 2010

office work

Two things that are related and I find very funny:

-Driving home from a friend's place and getting stuck in morning rush hour
-Getting in a cab at the end of the night, asking the driver "has it been a busy night" and the cabbie replies "I don't know, I just work mornings"

These are most funny when the deciding factor between the two options is how straight you can walk.

I went to bed early last night and woke up early.  It feels good.

The Doors and The Lost Boys

Sometimes things don't work out like they are supposed to or how you intended.  That can be good or bad or totally unexpected; other times you realize that the process is actually more important than the result.

This was just a lead in to talking about something that certain people understand and others just don't get.  Runners talk call it the runner's high; what I want to bring to attention to is something I call artist's high.
The joy of starting something new
The focus of planning this thing
The hard and stressful work involved in the completion
The obsession that drives that work
The force that demands or the fire inside that makes all of that stress and obsession seem like good things
The warm exciting feeling that comes from knowing what you are doing is good
The click in your mind and ultimate satisfaction and relief when you know that the project is done
The hesitant moment right before the first presentation of this project
The internal smile brought on by the point when you realize it is as good or better than what was expected or that you thought on your own
The high peaks when you experience the project in the way and place and setting it was designed to, and that the work paid off, the release of obsession, this is the part that someone who has ever created something and it has been a success.
Reality hits the moment you give up the personal and proprietary attachment to the project
The down part is the hallow feeling that comes from the release of that obsession and not having something to replace it.

This last part is the most unique to a creator.  A will and uncontrolled nature is what drives you to find something new, to search out all of the work and stress and ups and downs involved in a new project is the nature that separates some people from others.  It's easy to bask in success and to be content with that.
The point is that people are strange.  There is nothing wrong with being an "addictive personality", if a person doesn't have something to be addicted to they aren't fully living.  Lucky people find things worthy of obsession.   Unless of course that thing is fantasy baseball