shit

On my last journey I was convinced I was planning a trip up K2; when I opened my eyes I realized it was actually a dirt mound.  I started climbing again and got invited on a beautiful mission; now everything else will be a step down from that one.  I feel like I got to the top of Everest, got blown off in the rarified air and hurt bad on the landing.  Now I'm in a full body cast and I know that I'll never get up to that highest peak again.  Eventually I'll have to leave base-camp; but I'm still looking up at the mountain that kicked my ass.  I guess all I have left to do is get in shape and go in search of other mountains.  Right now I don't feel like climbing anything at all.  I guess my team is right when they say I have to let go of that previous achievement and start looking for another mountain to climb.  

This shit really sucks.