Wednesday, May 19, 2010
nice
nice day to take a walk and get some sun. I'm getting dark and fit this year. Then I'm going to peroxide my hair.
Monday, May 17, 2010
office work
Two things that are related and I find very funny:
-Driving home from a friend's place and getting stuck in morning rush hour
-Getting in a cab at the end of the night, asking the driver "has it been a busy night" and the cabbie replies "I don't know, I just work mornings"
These are most funny when the deciding factor between the two options is how straight you can walk.
I went to bed early last night and woke up early. It feels good.
-Driving home from a friend's place and getting stuck in morning rush hour
-Getting in a cab at the end of the night, asking the driver "has it been a busy night" and the cabbie replies "I don't know, I just work mornings"
These are most funny when the deciding factor between the two options is how straight you can walk.
I went to bed early last night and woke up early. It feels good.
The Doors and The Lost Boys
Sometimes things don't work out like they are supposed to or how you intended. That can be good or bad or totally unexpected; other times you realize that the process is actually more important than the result.
This was just a lead in to talking about something that certain people understand and others just don't get. Runners talk call it the runner's high; what I want to bring to attention to is something I call artist's high.
The joy of starting something new
The focus of planning this thing
The hard and stressful work involved in the completion
The obsession that drives that work
The force that demands or the fire inside that makes all of that stress and obsession seem like good things
The warm exciting feeling that comes from knowing what you are doing is good
The click in your mind and ultimate satisfaction and relief when you know that the project is done
The hesitant moment right before the first presentation of this project
The internal smile brought on by the point when you realize it is as good or better than what was expected or that you thought on your own
The high peaks when you experience the project in the way and place and setting it was designed to, and that the work paid off, the release of obsession, this is the part that someone who has ever created something and it has been a success.
Reality hits the moment you give up the personal and proprietary attachment to the project
The down part is the hallow feeling that comes from the release of that obsession and not having something to replace it.
This last part is the most unique to a creator. A will and uncontrolled nature is what drives you to find something new, to search out all of the work and stress and ups and downs involved in a new project is the nature that separates some people from others. It's easy to bask in success and to be content with that.
The point is that people are strange. There is nothing wrong with being an "addictive personality", if a person doesn't have something to be addicted to they aren't fully living. Lucky people find things worthy of obsession. Unless of course that thing is fantasy baseball
This was just a lead in to talking about something that certain people understand and others just don't get. Runners talk call it the runner's high; what I want to bring to attention to is something I call artist's high.
The joy of starting something new
The focus of planning this thing
The hard and stressful work involved in the completion
The obsession that drives that work
The force that demands or the fire inside that makes all of that stress and obsession seem like good things
The warm exciting feeling that comes from knowing what you are doing is good
The click in your mind and ultimate satisfaction and relief when you know that the project is done
The hesitant moment right before the first presentation of this project
The internal smile brought on by the point when you realize it is as good or better than what was expected or that you thought on your own
The high peaks when you experience the project in the way and place and setting it was designed to, and that the work paid off, the release of obsession, this is the part that someone who has ever created something and it has been a success.
Reality hits the moment you give up the personal and proprietary attachment to the project
The down part is the hallow feeling that comes from the release of that obsession and not having something to replace it.
This last part is the most unique to a creator. A will and uncontrolled nature is what drives you to find something new, to search out all of the work and stress and ups and downs involved in a new project is the nature that separates some people from others. It's easy to bask in success and to be content with that.
The point is that people are strange. There is nothing wrong with being an "addictive personality", if a person doesn't have something to be addicted to they aren't fully living. Lucky people find things worthy of obsession. Unless of course that thing is fantasy baseball
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Prom
Gayngs Last Prom on Earth was awesome. So much fun. Good feelings come from those memories. That was fun guys, good job. 9.9 out of 10. Nothing like this will ever happen again. 1300 balloon drop. four confetti cannons, dave and me working, 200 helium balloons, thousands of feet of streamers, sweet tux, fur couch, 10' sequin gayng sign, 25 plus members, prom dressed friends, sold out crowd, friends all around, hot and beautiful dresses and shoes, smiles everywhere, near perfect amount of consumption, such good people, Darling party after, blue light sunrise, all the names, rooftop, wonderful and perfect person to be a seat for, beautiful pictures, cooks champagne, ladders and polka dots, camera girl, glow spot in that picture, dropped shit, right person to spend the night with, wake up nicely and warm, t shirt, chipotle lunch, drop off, go home and waste while dreaming, wonderful music. the night was just right. smiles and warmth, and broken glasses. I could go on, but I'll feel it instead. Good job Gayng and Dave and Claire and Matt plus everyone else. this rocked. bye
not like any night that will ever happen again. this was a truly unique experience and everyone present had their own unique experience. wonderful changes and surprises combined with reminders of why I liked it in '97 made this a warmth triggering memory that will never go away. yes
not like any night that will ever happen again. this was a truly unique experience and everyone present had their own unique experience. wonderful changes and surprises combined with reminders of why I liked it in '97 made this a warmth triggering memory that will never go away. yes
Sunday, May 9, 2010
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