loose change

Has anyone ever seen THX1138?   I feel a bit like I'm in the room with all white non-walls; I keep trying to look and go different directions in an effort to escape, but it hasn't worked yet.  I keep trying to move forward, a few times I even thought I saw a way out; but things just don't change and there isn't an exit in sight.   This shit is really getting to me; bringing me down, shaking me up.   It's so fucking hot and humid right now; I'm not made for this shit and it's not helping at all.

I'm done with all this summer business; I want the fans to be off, I want to wear a jacket, I want to wear pants comfortably, I want to use a blanket, I don't want to sweat while sitting; a source of smiles did find me and I haven't smiled that broadly in a long time; but now it feels like I need to schedule appointments (that's being hard on her and isn't entirely true).  I'm just a bummed out dude getting dragged down by the things that should be making me happy.