ahhhhhh fuck

a good friend of mine recently said to me, "dude, people would love to have some of the 'problems' you've got".  fine.  right now I'm being forced to accept the fact that I have to let go of the best option that has come up and go after another that may be good, but probably not as good.  the new option seems to be like when the teaser trailer is better than the one that gets shown in the theater and you're not sure if you should go see the show or not.  I hate this shit.