at ease

things cooled off from last night and I am a bit at ease, but I still feel like there is something still lingering in the air between us.  I'm happiest when I'm with you, but I know it can't be like that.  I saw your tears welling up and I backed off from the path I had intended to take; I realized it was the wrong way to go.  I wish we could travel the golden road together; but the world doesn't always work that way.  We're both still looking for the on ramp and in separate cars.  this sucks.