shit

On my last journey I was convinced I was planning a trip up K2; when I opened my eyes I realized it was actually a dirt mound.  I started climbing again and got invited on a beautiful mission; now everything else will be a step down from that one.  I feel like I got to the top of Everest, got blown off in the rarified air and hurt bad on the landing.  Now I'm in a full body cast and I know that I'll never get up to that highest peak again.  Eventually I'll have to leave base-camp; but I'm still looking up at the mountain that kicked my ass.  I guess all I have left to do is get in shape and go in search of other mountains.  Right now I don't feel like climbing anything at all.  I guess my team is right when they say I have to let go of that previous achievement and start looking for another mountain to climb.  

This shit really sucks.

best ever

While in the shower today I figured out what will be the best and tastiest burger plate of all time.  Thomas Keller I'm coming for you.  This thing will be expensive, unhealthy, a little bit of cruelty involved in the ingredients, dangerous to your body, stinky, illegal, incite a fuss among certain groups of people, and delicious.

Patty:
Kobe and Veal mix (expensive, unhealthy, cruel, protestable)

Toppings:
Micro Greens
Sliced Purple Heirloom Tomatoes (expensive)
Soft Unpasteurized French Cheese (expensive, dangerous, unhealthy, illegal)
House Made Rough Stone Ground Mustard
Caramelized Yellow Onions

Bun:
Made in small batches from a Vintage Yeast Culture (potential danger)

Side:
Potato free 1/4 Julliene (sic?) Foie Gras Fries in Medium/Light Batter (cruel, expensive, illegal in some places, unhealthy, protestable)
w/Spicy Black Truffle Ketchup (expensive)

Might as well serve it on a Lalique colored glass plate. (very expensive)

DELICIOUS!!!!!!!

I thought of this while in the shower and haven't stopped wanting one all day.  I imagine that without knowing the details even the most militant vegan would eat and love it.

I can only think of two things that I would like to eat as much as this right now, and I'm just about as likely to taste either of those today as I am of tasting this burger.   bummer

clean apartment

I'm a mess.  This shit sucks.  Need to get moving.

truth

the truth can hurt and the truth can comfort.  not knowing the truth can leave you floating down a blissful stream of naive ignorance; but finding out that there is a raging river flowing behind you, a river you accidently stepped into and are now drowning it really crushes that bliss.  If I were to make a real natural world metaphor I would say that before this weekend I was a sockeye salmon swimming upstream, then I got caught and eaten by a shitty bear.  now if I am going to swim upstream I want to be a bull shark swimming up the mississippi river.  those things can breath salt and freshwater and they are vicious mother fuckers.  in reality I'll probably just become a river trout, or maybe an otter.

what a load of shit stretch.  forgive me, I'm forcing it

today's wisdom

it's hard to be serious when the whole world is a joke.

right

things are right.  Gorillaz fixed my brain. that was a fucking cool concert.
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concert= average age<26
performance=average age>33
shit show=average age<14

this was a fucking cool concert, and the three kids who dressed up like the Gorillaz were the coolest people in the place.

I stopped thinking about the past and focused my eyes on the future; got some support from friends and noticed that I things are alright.

cheers

shit

this break we're taking sucks, and it hasn't even been a full day.  I'm going to be missing you hard girly, I wish I hadn't fucked things up.