much better than alien ant farm

hole digging

when it rains it pours.  what a good pour I'm in, smiling while digging myself into a hole.  hovercraft, helicopter, or power boat.  I could run on with this.  I should run with the whole experience.  pros and cons all over the fucking place.  

song of today

song of today

greatest

Early Black Sabbath should be in the running for one of the greatest bands of all time.  Quiet awesome, loud really awesome, really loud really fucking awesome.  

too bad

The is no way in the world that Beverly Hills Cop could get made today.  Unfortunate

song of today

song of today

shimmy shimmy shake

So yesterday I got let go from my job because my boss thought that the tremor in my hand might cause customers to be uncomfortable.  Total bullshit.  I would have quit the place soon, but it would have been nice to have another job lined up when I did.  When I have shared the reason for me the firing the first reaction has been that the circumstances were on the edge of workplace discrimination.  At first I didn't think it fell under such a blanket; but last night I did a bit of research into the matter.  From my research I realized that it really is bordering on, if not fully under that blanket.  Not cool.  Maybe something I should do something about (or at least look into doing something about).

This might get kind of interesting, might not.

leave me alone

I wish you would leave me alone; but thoughts of you just won't go away.   I'm sure if you read this you probably would, which makes me feel even shittier.  Dammit. Ain't nothing better than lose/lose situations.

annoying

I'm feeling more like myself than I have in a few weeks, which is awesome.  Over the course of the last two weeks my mind broke.  I hit bottom.  Now that I'm getting back up it feels awesome, I just wish I could take someone with me.  Instead of coming along she is pulling away and falling deeper into her own hole.  I've been telling myself this more and more lately; but it might finally be time to let go.   I really wish I wanted to.  

on a different yet related note; I'm pretty sure that girls who aren't doing some kind of birth control think I'm better looking than the ones who are.  

lessons learned about the internet

So I shared a bit too much and I was reminded that people actually look at the stuff I put on the internet.  Won't be sharing or talking about personal stuff that much anymore.  back to being a blog about nothing except stuff

missing you

I miss my longer hair, the novelty of short hair has worn off. totally.

yo

I'm a bit too open with things, time to get more private

the best kind of shitty

The part in Return of the King when Gandalf starts kicking ass on the wall at Minas Tirith is fucking cool.

I just realized that to orcs aragorn must seem like hitler.  he wanted to rid the world of their kind. and I imagine that after return of the king he went around and did his best to do it.

I hope your loss doesn't cause me to lose you.

once upon a time someone I loved very much decided she had had enough of me.  it was horrible.  I felt alone and like I had done something wrong.  it sucked really really bad.  after awhile I was able to see that it was for the best.  one thing I never did was let go of my friends, their support kept me afloat; MH please do the same. At a time when the black sea of loss, despair and guilt are crashing onto you it is your friends and those who love you that will keep your head above that sea and it will keep your eyes clear.  Bad things happen when you jump around in the dark with blinded eyes.

Chauncey wants to make Madison happy

do it

wish came true.  at least half of it did. now I just have to make sure that in the process the good half of that wish isn't washed away by tears.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

In her words "you don't get to pick who you love"
in the words of a friend "you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved"
in my words, "if I can't hold you I will do my best to hold you up"
  Ms. Madison Hightower, I'm the one for you and you are the one for me, it was meant to be, you know it as much as I do. That go-tard has finally set you free. hopefully your tears don't wash you away from me. -Chauncey DeLaroux

it will suck right now, but it will be good in time

yeah

so I saw the place I am going to start working at today.  not bad. the best part is that not only did the chef see , he saw me with a pretty girl.  excellent way to suck up. having pretty girls around always helps in someway.

I also want to say that in relation to the double thumbed fist situation; take your sister's advice. the points of view from people who know you well but aren't involved directly in a situation can be very good.  good for me in the long run.  let's hope she does alright with everything; I really want to look out for her. bye

a hand with a thumb on each end

so a six fingered hand with a thumb on each and is currently giving me the thumbs up and thumbs down at the same time.  something I wanted to happen seems like it might have; but the aftershocks of that happening could be exactly what I did not want. dammit. just when things were looking up. oh well, I've got a lot to do today, I'll just have to worry about it later.  that two thumbed hand is the image of the day.  I also learned that someone I thought was a good friend is actually a piece of shit.  good thing a family member might fuck that dude's life up real good.

my girls at le'toile are the best, they can promote me any time

@ Spot Art Gallery
1828 Marshall Street NE
Minneapolis

7-11pm / Free

Stop in to Spot Art Gallery tonight and take a gander at a cool new group show featuring the work of local artists Andrey Feldshteyn, Serik Kilmeshkenov, Bryant Locher, Cody Kiser, Merry Reimier, Connie Kasella, Spleee, BMF, and Karl Friedrich. We're especially excited to see what Bryant Locher has in store, as this is the first time he's shown paintings in a couple of years, instead focusing on creating innovative lighting design for the band Solid Gold and other projects. Tonight's opening at Spot Art will also feature live music by David Harland at 9pm and henna tattoo art by Judy Ostrowski.

april fool's day

I pulled a great april fool's day gag.  I posted on facebook that I cut part of my finger off while drunk the night before.   people read my comments and frequently reply.  they ate this one up.  awesome.

no words beyond wow

I'm an over-reactive april fool.  I got tricked bad.  I over-reacted supremely.  I embarrassed myself extremely.  I am an idiot