a semi-return to the future

The flyer for Future Presence 3. It's been a very long time since I posted here. Tons of things have changed since I was posting regularly. I've been super busy opening a gallery, working on art to put in galleries and working on not having reasons to post all of the mopey stuff I used to write about all of the time. I've been posting the links I would have previously posted here. It's kind of sad, but it's easier and I have more people paying attention to what I do there than I do on here. I apologize to the people who kept up with me here. Request me as a friend on the stupid face business. Bryant Locher is my real name.  I'm super sorry, now that I'm back I've found that I kind of miss The BlueFuture.  Hopefully I'll come back here once in awhile. If you want to blame someone blame the person I previously called the RYT. Lot's of bullshit in that business. Got my priorities twisted.

If you're in Minneapolis on the 26th come to the Future Presence Gallery (1126 2nd St NE). Each Future Presence show the art gets better and the opening becomes more fun. Cheers to all and to all a good night.  

press for future presence II

Vita.mn future presence write up

good read

eyeore   article

clear up

when I said 'so long' I was referring to the fact that it's been so long since I last posted, not in the semi-sad way of saying goodbye.  yup yup y'all

so long

it's been a really long time since I posted on here. been pretty busy working on various art related projects; lighting design, consultation, installation, studio work, gallery exhibits, curating exhibitions. all the shit that you need to do if you are serious. look me up on facebook if you want a taste of my day to day

Speaking of gallery/curating/exhibitions;

the art event series, Future Presence, I created with fellow Minneapolis artist Nathaniel Smith has been a project seriously taking away my bluefuture time.  Our facebook is under Futuure Presence or Future Presence art event series. We also have a blog called Future Presence on blogspot (still in early stages of interesting). The next Future Presence event will be happening May 20-22.

"HACK THE PLANET, THEY'RE TRASHING OUR RIGHTS"

jumping into the modern era

Check out what I just bought from Sweetwater: http://www.sweetwater.com/store/detail/DMXIS

quotes

I took this off facebook. fucking lame, right?. Pretty good quote though

Chad Ochocinco

It's not my look that defines me but I'm definitely not afraid to let it do the talking :)


snoop had a good quote that I heard, I don't have it worded right.


I spend my time getting ready, so when I need it I don't have to

good to read

BUSINESS/ART Article

This article is interesting. I especially like how he challenges artists to do what he is saying that the business world should do. Embrace different mentalities to further everything.  That ending shows that he isn't trying to enable artists to grow the paper thin condescending attitude that I and many people involved in the creative process I know feel about aspects of the other side of things.  Artists do need to be business savvy, the quality of the hustle can make a much bigger difference on profitability than quality of actual the art.  The attitude that an artist needs to be a businessman isn't new, you find it out the minute you decide you want to make money off your art.  We all go to an office (cubicle/studio), the money is just a bit one sided.

not as fun

the moment when you realize that something will never happen or will never happen again sucks. I had one of those moments a few days ago and I have another one on the way for tonight. It's also nice to find out that you were an important player in the worst time in someone's life. Nothing like being called a fling or a phase.

Somethings are too good to end others must end before they stop being good and you accept these things. Somethings can only happen once or for a small period of time at a specific place in a specific time with specific people; it hurts when those things come to an end and you realize that the only two options are to get wound up in the past or to move on. I don't want to move on from what will be ending tonight. More than a year long relationship with a group of people who came together once a week to celebrate, collaborate and comiserate (s.i.c.) is having it's last hurrah.  Who knows how often I will ever see these people again (I'm guessing I won't very often).  So much fun has been had; but ego took over for a bit and people got scared away leaving the event a shadow of it's original goodness.  Shadows don't make for good statues and the night began to grow quiet.  Tonight will be the last session of Nick and Eddie's wednesday gatherings; this has been my key to the social world, a place to have meetings, a place to meet others, a place to share ideas, to form ideas, to make friends, to patch up mistakes, to have birthdays, to share tears, to drink, to learn new things and most importantly: to dance.  That's how it all started, then things went a different direction.  Not everybody liked that direction and some began to stay away.  New things came as old things passed, but there isn't anybody left to properly take over.  Sad. Going to have to tear it up tonight.

Thoughts about that moment of never again were introduced to me monday night and I haven't been the same. A 'friend' brought it up and ended it with a "thanks dude".  My floor is dissolving and I'm not sure that I have a basement to fall into, instead of standing in a solid structure I might find that I was just up on a balcony and when the floor goes away I'm just going to fall.

I will wake up thursday morning and a part of my life that has been really important and needed will be gone. I'm taking this hard and it hasn't even happened yet.  If things happen in 3's then tonight will be the third in a week. Vincent, CsEv and now Nick & Eddie; at least they've spaced themselves out to be every other day.

thanks dude

So there is this fucking bad guy who tried to do something really bad to a someone who is very important. my friend was able to get out of the situation before it was too late, but no woman should be forced into this type of situation.  If I were Ed Deline I would call in some favors with the company; the problem is that not only am I not him, he is a character in a show based in Las Vegas from the early 2000's, the other problem is that I have absolutely no chance of ever having connections like that.  Oh well, such is life.  

I digressed there for a minute. I promised not to say anything to anybody about anything related to this, so I can't ask anybody for advice. The reason I'm not writing anything specific because this is the fucking internet, a public blog and the first thing that pops up when you google me. 

My last point is that the dude is a sample of how horrible humans can be.  Eventually we are all introduced to the evil side of life and it changes you afterwards; but there are people who shouldn't have to experience it, and my friend should not have had to deal with what almost happened and because of who it was my friend won't be able to remove that individual from their life. On the surface my friend seems to be handling things alright, but I know that my friend is putting on a stone face.  I wish there was something I could do, but sadly I can't and I've spent the whole day being angry at myself for that and angry at that piece of stereotype trash not only for what he almost did to my friend but for what he has probably done to others in the past and gotten away with it.  

having said all that I need to back off this because it's not my place to be this worked up about this.

I need to find a new movie or some other stupid thing to focus this blog around now that Tron is long gone and a little bit disappointing.  I'll keep my head up

slacking

I haven't been very up to date with this thing lately.  It's funny how doing things worth writing about takes up all of the time I would spend writing about it.
  I've been showing my work at different places. I've actually got two openings this friday, hopefully some sales will go along with them. It's been so cold, it's been a good winter to delude myself into thinking I don't care.  I haven't really complained about the winter; I have complained about the cold weather/snow parking restrictions. That shit has cost me: 2 tows=$300 3 tickets=$140. I need to sell some work. I sold a few back at the Future Presence show, next one needs to happen soon.  Did two 26x66 furry light panels for an interior design showcase exhibit and they attracted some real interest (hopefully interest attracts some money); ideally there is potential for some client based work.
  I'm working on art, I'm working on videos, I've got a project with The Pines coming up; but I have yet to make any money off of any of it. Sucks.

I'd like to have some way to end this with a bit of wit, but I think my brain has transferred all of my creative energy into the part of my brain that let's me work on three different projects that have nothing to do with each other and are not at all similar. Designed light panels, paintings, stage lighting installation; different mindsets for each one. That's what the game is all about though so if I want this wave of interest to go anywhere I'll just have to get used to being a bit frazzled (unless I stop embracing the theory that procrastination and finishing at the last minute leads to good work).  Haven't done it yet though, I have to submit the paintings for the show on friday that isn't up yet by thursday night, and I still have a bunch to do. I'm glad that making things, being in my studio, sharing my work, sharing my ideas and all of that are the things that made me most happy to do. The complements from strangers aren't too bad either.

most illegal thing in the history of wrestling

this reminded me why I loved the WWF as much as I did. this is awesome

new shoes

I would like these shoes. Seeing as they are 550 dollars I can't fly them on my own; if anybody wants to help me get these I would totally take your donation to my fund.
SWEET SHOES

I loved the fuck out of this song when I was in sixth grade

Light at the End of Line

I finally got to see Tron.

I'm not the only one

So, everybody thinks about suicide at least once as far as I'm concerned.  I've thought about it since I was 8, it's a possible side effect of medicine I have to take, I know people who have tried and I know people who have been successful.  It's bullshit.  A total selfish bullshit act for chicken shit assholes.  Some people are truly fucked up when they try and others are going for the most narcissistic cry for attention possible.  No matter how you justify it, in reality it's just bullshit.

I've known lots of people who have died for various reasons; old age, suicide, accidental suicide (autoerotic asphyxiation), shot in a robbery, car accidents, not wearing a seatbelt, drunk drivers, tragic illness, lost at sea (lake michigan), cancer and I'm probably missing a few.  There is one person Dave Shotkowski I consider the most tragic of them all.  He was my high school pitching coach and an all around good guy, it was the year of the MLB strike and he had been called to Florida to pitch as a replacement player; he was down there and some mother fuckers decided to steal his wallet and shoot him.  This man with a family, this super nice guy, this guy getting a chance to finally live his dream; this guy was killed for no reason at all.  The epitome of tragedy.  This man should not be dead.  My old friend Andy Hartwig who died in a car accident should not be dead; the majority of people I've know who have died should not have when they did.  This will all make sense soon

A few days ago someone I know tried really hard to kill himself.  He was sedated, put on life support feeding tube and all.  The guy had been acting really crazy and stupid and just plain dumb.  He's a talented guy and I owe him a lot.  When I first heard I was concerned for his fiance and wanted to hit him.  I needed to know if he was okay and I was generally concerned.  The whole time I wanted to go and punch him and call him a pussy.  I was planning on visiting him; until yesterday that is.  So this piece of shit made a post on facebook that was essentially an invite to go visit him in the psych ward.  I've maintained contact with his fiance (I guess she broke up with him after this), and she has continued to tell me when his visiting hours are and all of that shit.  Each update I just get more and more pissed off.  The facebook thing was the last request; he was asking for sympathy and to me he seemed to be bragging about it.  I didn't want to visit him after that, for if I did I know I would just yell at him and want to kick his ass (not good things to do to someone in the psyche ward) and I tonight I found out that I'm not alone.

Another friend of his and another one of the first to know feels the same way. Only a piece of dung would stop fighting when there are so many people who has their chance to fight.  To try to give up when so many people have it taken away makes me so mad, so fucking mad.  I'm not saying that everyone who tries to off them self sucks, some people need help.  Asking for visitors on facebook like you're inviting them to a party is offensive to me, I've been really offended by this guy I at one point would have called a brother.  If I go and visit I will yell and want to hit him, if I go and visit I will be involving myself in a situation I want no part of.

I'll finish this up similar to how I started it; suicide is fucking stupid unless it goes before tendencies and is the name of a band (even they aren't cool anymore), suicide is bullshit and selfish and all words that go  along with those ideas.  I have no sympathy at all.  Sorry dude, I don't really want you to be a part of my life.  I don't want to waste my time worrying or being sad or anything about someone who does shit like this.  Fuck you dude.

i was here

so it's 1994 and young long haired me was long term inspired by this concert. Nine Inch Nails downward spiral tour.  It was amazing.  I also picked up a (if memory serves me correct) hot 19 year old lady who I thought was younger; when she and her friends invited me and my friends to come hang out at their place in chicago after the show and I had to say that I couldn't because my dad was waiting to pick us up I'll never forget the look on her face when my response to her asking my age was "15".  Needless to say I never made it to her place.

The other thing that stuck in my head after that show was the stage design.  it was amazing.  This song and "Reptile" were two that inspire me to this day when I am thinking about new stage installations.  This song is also an amazing one that immediately slams me with the floods of emotion that were washing around my system at the time.

HURT

FutuRE PRESENCE has come and gone

Future Presence was a success; I sold work, made money, made some potentially great contacts, everybody had an awesome time, basically it was a success.  In three and a half weeks the two of us put together something way surpassed any of our initial expectations.  I can't wait for the next one.

I'll finish this with a congratulations to my dear friend Amber Courteau; the release party for her book is tonight.  I can't imagine a more deserving person.  There was a time awhile ago where we had a morning talk about things we wanted to do; publishing a book and putting together art shows were two things that were talked about.  It is pretty cool that we each got the first taste of doing those things that we wanted on the same weekend.  Recently the coincidences are piling up, this is one that is beyond crazy or fate based.

Good job Amber, Jeremy, Nathaniel and Me; we kicked ass this weekend

Final results for the Polish Pugilist

I owe Jeremy Catterton for letting me be part of such an amazing and special production.  Of my list of art related accomplishments being part of that play is easily one of my proudest moments.  Climbing and wiring in those filthy rafters, hundreds of trips up and down narrow rickety stairs, prolonged sweating, consistent stress about being in over my head amongst a group of such dedicated and talented people, being pushed far outside of my artistic comfort zone and finding that I could step up to the challenge, being pushed to new levels, meeting and working with such an amazing tribe of people, being exposed to truly dedicated artists who would die for their craft, seeing a bar set high above me and finding that I could reach it; I could keep going.  Jeremy, Hillary, Kristina, Jacob, Claire, Mike, Abbey and Paula, I'm proud to be able to say I worked with you and I'm proud that all the result of all of the time, the total dedication and exhausting effort turned into something so amazing.  I didn't do the project because I was looking to get anything out of it, I did it so I could work with and learn from a group of diverse and talented people.  We all put so much work into it, I'm so glad we are getting the recognition we all knew we deserved.  This was one of the best summers of my life.  I can also safely say that without my involvement it wouldn't have worked like it did.

POLISH PUGILIST TIED FOR BEST PERFORMANCE PIECE in Lavender magazine's best of 2010 list

I owe a lot to Jeremy Catterton, he is responsible for me being where I am artistically; for years he's been a constant and strong supporter, he made me push myself artistically to a whole new level with my work on the Polish Pugilist; through working on the play I was introduced to Nathaniel Smith, what evolved into Future Presence started as a facebook chat at 2 in the morning, because of Future Presence I was presented with opportunities I never would have encountered on my own.  In the last six months I've really found out what true hard work and dedication can get you, and I love it.

FUTURE PRESENCE

Future Presence is shaping up to be worthy of it's Tronday opening.  On Friday Dec. 17th this is the art show you want to be at.  The list of artists is a list of rad people who do good work.  I've got my compatriots Solid Gold (dj), MAKR, Dave Jensen, Drew Christopherson, Ryan Olsen, DickPicks helping out with music.  We've got beer and wine sponsors.  Everything is shaping up to be excellent.  For my first time curating an event this might be a pretty damn good one.